Sunday, January 18, 2009


Willpower. I’m going to call it willpower. The fact that he can go 24, 48, even longer than that sometimes without contacting me. Because he said he thinks about me all the time. Which means he’s thinking about me now. Just like I’m thinking about him. Wondering what he’s doing. Who he’s with. Why he isn’t at the very least calling me.

I know it’s because he can’t sometimes, much of the time. There are factors which prevent it. There are conditions, stipulations. And so it must be killing him. To not pick up the phone and call me. Just to hear my voice. Just to let me know he’s thinking of me. Willpower.